digital silence

i won’t ask a question, i’ll state the truth

this is the way that it is

this is the way that it always will be

so. it’s almost summer break. i may look inactive, but i’m currently writing a countdown for the last week of school. that’s write baby (pun)

but you goblins need content now. so here’s your content.


it’s weird to think that school’s almost over. how many of you remember the first day? week? month? how many of you remember that test you aced? how about the one you failed? how many of you can say they know what happened this year?

in this day and age, how many of us have slowed down? it’s almost impossible with assignment after test after assignment. how many of us have taken time to engage in our passions? we don’t have money. don’t have cars, don’t have time.

until we do.

but when will that be? only a few of us have jobs. only a few of us have permits. and time’s coming like a freight truck.

but how about time? time moves on and on and on forever taking us from a certain past to the uncertain future.

the amount of possibilities every day should stagger the mind. the sheer number of things i could do at any moment is impossible. and i’m sitting here refreshing my inbox. we relive the same few days over and over. when did we forget our dreams? we act as if we get through today our dreams will come back tomorrow.

and no, i don’t have all the answers. i don’t know how to start seeing what could be. but i do know that watering down life’s experience, watering down every little idea and thought to fit the mold isn’t it.

let me pull you aside for a moment. take wrong turns. talk to strangers. open unmarked doors. you are curious, you are smart, you are bored. all you can see right now is a choice between slacking off and working hard. there are so many tiny interesting choices that we could all make and we can’t because we just want to get to tomorrow.


something tells me that you’re never gonna stop
until you get what you want


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you should PROTECT yourself

i have to write another one? really? christ.

i hold on to something strong ’cause i’m about to fall

leaning tower of pisa’s got nothing on me you know

hey remember the EARN IT act? how much of a problem that was? well it’s happening again. with the brand new PROTECT act (senate bill 686) the government isn’t just coming for tiktok, they’re coming for you.

Continue readingyou should PROTECT yourself

heartaches by the number

trouble by the score

everyday you loved me less

each day i loved you more

so spring break’s over. and i don’t know how to feel. like, the break was nice and all. but i have a problem. i… don’t feel like i did it right.

“oh lucas how can you vacation wrong” i don’t feel fulfilled. i feel like i wasted the whole thing, wasting what little time i had. i didn’t go anywhere, didn’t really do anything. and all i can think about is how the next major break is summer break.

we’ve 47 days of school left. i pray for the strength to get through this.


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we don’t get fooled again

no, no!

meet the new boss

same as the old boss

so i got my first detention. wooooo. for being late to school. excuse me? they are aware that i don’t have a car yes? that i am not capable of getting myself to school yet, and i won’t be until maybe junior year? my second time being late too. what happened to 3 strikes and you’re out? straight to zero tolerance apparently. not as if there’s any larger issues in the world than me being late.

you know the real kicker? if i literally just didn’t show up there would be no consequence. wouldn’t get detention. i’d pound out my work in an hour and play minecraft the rest of the day. because i woke up at 7:25 and still made the effort to get there at 7:45, only shaving off 15 minutes of class, i got 15 minutes after school. the next time this happens, it’s a mental health day for me. why bother showing up if i’m late? i’d get punished and still have to go through an entire school day.

so here’s my little form of protest. in the last month of school, may 8 to june 8, i’m using every hall pass i have. i’m taking my 15 minutes back. at this current moment, i have 38 passes. 5 in almost every class, 4 in two others. say i go to the bathroom for 3 minutes. that’s 114 minutes i get off. 7.6 times the amount i spent in the media center. i’m out here fighting god.

and to the office ladies: hi. i figure you might be reading this. and yes this is entirely your fault. you didn’t need to be rude when you were giving me an unnecessary detention. is this what you signed up for? is this what you were hoping you’d do once you got the job? are you happy now?


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hitchhiker’s guide

…and thanks for all the fish!

don’t panic.

i’m writing a little guide to the delightful high school we’re all legally required to cope with. it’s a blog post that will take the next 3 1/2 years to finish. it’ll include notes on the building, the teachers, and more. a real shame then, that we’ll all be off to college or work somewhere before we can use it. ah well, history for history’s sake is a noble cause. my hitchhiker’s guide, coming the summer of 2026.

i feel alive

and it’s ok, yeah we’re ok

the Consumers Electronics Show is a massive event hosted every year in las vegas. i really want to go there. a few asterisks.

one – you have to be 18 or older. that’ll just happen.

two – it’s a trade show, so you have to have a connection to the industry.

three – did you know that if you are getting 75 thousand monthly views on tiktok that you can get a press pass with benefits to CES?

bonus – did you know that E3 is quite open to social media influencers?

that’s right. i’m doing this.

soon, i’m going to start a tiktok channel with the express goal of getting enough people following me to make it to E3 and CES. that’s it. i’ll post tech videos and have fun. maybe even learn a thing or two. sponsorships? nah. boring. pretty sure i couldn’t sign a legal contract with a corporation until 18 anyways. wish me luck 🙂


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i’ve heard that song before

the lyrics said, “forever more”

and the moment you stop thinking,
you come into immediate contact with what Korzybski called,
so delightfully, ‘the unspeakable world.’

alan watts, 1967

it’s christmas. i don’t really know what to say except… wow. we made it another year. of course, we’re writing down more things for we didn’t start the fire v2.

but that’s not important right now. right now, we’re in the best part of the year. except for the blizzard coming up but that’s not important.

it’s interesting just what the end of the year means. logically, it means nothing. just another loop on our imaginary time system. another trip around the sun.

emotionally, it’s a reboot. a fresh start, new things to be had, new places to be seen, new memories to be made.

there’s others who can describe it better then me. i leave you with alan watts, a writer, speaker, and philosopher. you can hear and read the full talk here.


“But you know, if you talk all the time, you will never hear what anybody else has to say, and therefore, all you’ll have to talk about is your own conversation.

The same is true for people who think all the time. That means, when I use the word ‘think,’ talking to yourself, subvocal conversation, the constant chit-chat of symbols and images and talk and words inside your skull.

Now, if you do that all the time, you’ll find that you’ve nothing to think about except thinking, and just as you have to stop talking to hear what I have to say, you have to stop thinking to find out what life is about.

And the moment you stop thinking, you come into immediate contact with what Korzybski called, so delightfully, ‘the unspeakable world.’

The most ordinary sights and sounds and smells, the texture of shadows on the floor in front of you. All these things, without being named, and saying ‘that’s a shadow, that’s red, that’s brown, that’s somebody’s foot.’

When you don’t name things anymore, you start seeing them. Because say when a person says ‘I see a leaf,’ immediately, one thinks of a spearhead-shaped thing outlined in black and filled in with flat green. No leaf looks like that. No leaves–leaves are not green.

That’s why Lao-Tzu said ‘the five colors make a man blind, the five tones make a man deaf,’ because if you can only see five colors, you’re blind, and if you can only hear five tones in music, you’re deaf. You see, if you force sound into five tones, you force color into five colors, you’re blind and deaf.

The world of color is infinite, as is the world of sound. And it is only by stopping fixing conceptions on the world of color and the world of sound that you really begin to hear it and see it.

I am not talking about the ordering of ordinary everyday life in a reasonable and methodical way as being schoolteacherish, and saying ‘if you were NICE people, that’s what you would do.’ For heaven’s sake, don’t be nice people.

But the thing is, that unless you do have that basic framework of a certain kind of order, and a certain kind of discipline, the force of liberation will blow the world to pieces. It’s too strong a current for the wire.”


from all of us everywhere, merry christmas, happy hanukkah, and a happy new year. ■


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