oh, bella ciao!

che bel fior

questo è il fiore del partigiano

morto per la libertà


if you care, then keep reading. if you don’t? tldr – show’s over, go home.

i’ve been here for a while. the first post was on august 24, 2020 in which i said i’d start a podcast. the next post was me saying “sorry, nevermind.”

through the years, i’ve said quite a bit, yeah? talked about the past, the present, the future. something about privacy, philosophy, music. wrote a magazine, and finally buried the hatchet. ryan won, can’t believe it.

in between those 1,242 days (who’s counting?) i’ve made a lot, talked a lot, and done a lot. gone through domain after ip after domain. and it is here in which i bid you my farewell. this is not me saying that i’m leaving, this is not me saying that the website and my words will be lost to time, this is me saying that i’m done. maybe later in the future, i’ll look back and start anew. but right now? i’m closing up shop. either hiatus or gone for real.

so, for now, here’s lucas, signing off. thanks for the time!


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+ the 3 year anniversary

i see the world

no one else sees it for me

…well then. it’s been three whole months, hasn’t it? it has been exactly 83 days since i wrote my last post of the ’23 school year. and now it’s 284 days until i do it again. strange, innit?

i’m currently writing in the cafeteria. it’s been a while since i’ve been here, and i don’t think i missed it. questionable food, cold air, and loud people. i’d expect this from a bar, not here.

of course, that’s not what i want to focus on today. right now, i feel like talking about some things i learned over the summer. maybe you’ll be interested! (read: this is totally just a link dump 0_o)

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digital silence

i won’t ask a question, i’ll state the truth

this is the way that it is

this is the way that it always will be

so. it’s almost summer break. i may look inactive, but i’m currently writing a countdown for the last week of school. that’s write baby (pun)

but you goblins need content now. so here’s your content.


it’s weird to think that school’s almost over. how many of you remember the first day? week? month? how many of you remember that test you aced? how about the one you failed? how many of you can say they know what happened this year?

in this day and age, how many of us have slowed down? it’s almost impossible with assignment after test after assignment. how many of us have taken time to engage in our passions? we don’t have money. don’t have cars, don’t have time.

until we do.

but when will that be? only a few of us have jobs. only a few of us have permits. and time’s coming like a freight truck.

but how about time? time moves on and on and on forever taking us from a certain past to the uncertain future.

the amount of possibilities every day should stagger the mind. the sheer number of things i could do at any moment is impossible. and i’m sitting here refreshing my inbox. we relive the same few days over and over. when did we forget our dreams? we act as if we get through today our dreams will come back tomorrow.

and no, i don’t have all the answers. i don’t know how to start seeing what could be. but i do know that watering down life’s experience, watering down every little idea and thought to fit the mold isn’t it.

let me pull you aside for a moment. take wrong turns. talk to strangers. open unmarked doors. you are curious, you are smart, you are bored. all you can see right now is a choice between slacking off and working hard. there are so many tiny interesting choices that we could all make and we can’t because we just want to get to tomorrow.


something tells me that you’re never gonna stop
until you get what you want


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you should PROTECT yourself

i have to write another one? really? christ.

i hold on to something strong ’cause i’m about to fall

leaning tower of pisa’s got nothing on me you know

hey remember the EARN IT act? how much of a problem that was? well it’s happening again. with the brand new PROTECT act (senate bill 686) the government isn’t just coming for tiktok, they’re coming for you.

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heartaches by the number

trouble by the score

everyday you loved me less

each day i loved you more

so spring break’s over. and i don’t know how to feel. like, the break was nice and all. but i have a problem. i… don’t feel like i did it right.

“oh lucas how can you vacation wrong” i don’t feel fulfilled. i feel like i wasted the whole thing, wasting what little time i had. i didn’t go anywhere, didn’t really do anything. and all i can think about is how the next major break is summer break.

we’ve 47 days of school left. i pray for the strength to get through this.


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we don’t get fooled again

no, no!

meet the new boss

same as the old boss

so i got my first detention. wooooo. for being late to school. excuse me? they are aware that i don’t have a car yes? that i am not capable of getting myself to school yet, and i won’t be until maybe junior year? my second time being late too. what happened to 3 strikes and you’re out? straight to zero tolerance apparently. not as if there’s any larger issues in the world than me being late.

you know the real kicker? if i literally just didn’t show up there would be no consequence. wouldn’t get detention. i’d pound out my work in an hour and play minecraft the rest of the day. because i woke up at 7:25 and still made the effort to get there at 7:45, only shaving off 15 minutes of class, i got 15 minutes after school. the next time this happens, it’s a mental health day for me. why bother showing up if i’m late? i’d get punished and still have to go through an entire school day.

so here’s my little form of protest. in the last month of school, may 8 to june 8, i’m using every hall pass i have. i’m taking my 15 minutes back. at this current moment, i have 38 passes. 5 in almost every class, 4 in two others. say i go to the bathroom for 3 minutes. that’s 114 minutes i get off. 7.6 times the amount i spent in the media center. i’m out here fighting god.

and to the office ladies: hi. i figure you might be reading this. and yes this is entirely your fault. you didn’t need to be rude when you were giving me an unnecessary detention. is this what you signed up for? is this what you were hoping you’d do once you got the job? are you happy now?


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