(don’t fear)

oh baby isn’t life so
a summer countdown post: day 2

seasons don’t fear the reaper

nor do the wind or the sun or the rain

let’s talk about something different today. music! i’ve been listening to a lot of that recently.

it’s weird to think that music ever became a thing. at some point in human history, we heard a noise and thought “mmm yes more of that please”

and now we’re here. and where is here? we’re drowning in this age of postmodernism where everything is memeable and long form discussion is kinda dead.

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think about it! we continue through life being better and worse and living and loving and trying and failing and rising and falling. we are forever rising above our limits and crashing through the rock bottom.

wait this post was supposed to be about music.

lucas’s things you should listen to

  • little dark age by mgmt
  • it’s golden hour somewhere by lovejoy
  • (don’t fear) the reaper by blue öyster cult
  • istanbul (not constanople) by they might be giants
  • twentieth century fox by the doors
  • miserlou by dick dale
  • stardust by the pied pipers
  • mexican dream by piero piccioni
  • trying by cavetown
  • madhouse by matt maltese

if you think that you’ve seen some of these songs from this blog then you probably have. ok see you tomorrow :)))

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’cause she’s a

…twentieth century fox
a summer countdown post: day 3

no tears, no fears

no ruined years, no clocks

see, what’s interesting about this post is that i’m writing it the day of. just writing along. today’s post is about procrastination. it’s funny because that’s what i’m doing.

those of you who frequent my little corner of the internet might know i have a hate-hate relationship with procrastination. i do not like it. i don’t enjoy watching my grades drop. i do not like green eggs and ham, i do not like them sam-i-am.¹

procrastination is a killer catch-22.² you know that the work needs to get done, but you cannot do it due to some irrational restriction of the mind. you get two choices: try to do the work or just don’t bother.

if you don’t bother then it’s the path of least resistance. if you try, you will likely fail due to a distraction i.e. social media or hunger or someone coming to bother you. once you are off task, it’s hard to claw your way back and you fall off into the same outcome as if you never tried. you understand the problem here yes?

so what’s the solution? we can’t reach for the sky as we’d fall right back into the loop. if we go bare minimum then it’s the path of least resistance once again, and nothing happens. so here’s what happens. we go slightly above the bare minimum. not high enough to never start, not low enough so that we don’t have to try anything.

our goal has to be a s.m.a.r.t. one. wait an acronym NOOOOOO-

  • specific
  • measurable
  • actionable
  • responsible
  • time-bounded

your goal has to be specific. you cannot clean the whole house, but you can pick up that laundry pile and move it into a basket.

it has to be measurable, in that a difference is noticeable.

it has to be actionable, which is something you can do right now.

it has to be responsible, something that is an actual goal rather then “i will play an 80 round game of btd6”

and something that’s time-bound, something with a reasonable time limit. you cannot get anything done if you want to do it in two months.

and most of all, you cannot lie to yourself. you must be able to acknowledge the problem.

this post has become very serious and i’m not really happy about that so we’re going to go on a sudden tangent about trains and then an outro.

so trains. they go chugga chugga. maybe even choo choo. they are better than cars in every way and the fact that we went for the interstate system is a shame. you can sleep on a train or have tea on the train all the while going up to 110 an hour. faster than cars! and you can have more people on a train than in a car!

people complain about high speed rail being too expensive to put throughout the country. but counterpoint. the highway act of 1956. we dropped twenty-five billion dollars to build forty-four thousand miles of road. some of those roads are more neglected then the 9 key on your microwave.

if we did it before, then we can do it again. i want trains. ok bye.

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1: wow i really did put that in here. hmm. clearly i am mentally stable.
2: am reading this right now. catch-22 is a very good book.


…or one certainly long time
a summer countdown post: day 4

oh so happy, oh oh so happy

i’m pretty cool once you get to know me

i think we’re all going through some sort of heartbreak right now. it’s not the kind of heartbreak that you get from losing your love. i think it feels more like we’re all in the world right now and we don’t know how to be, if that makes any sense.

it makes sense why some of us might feel this way. all we’re doing is exam review after exam review, and in 24 hours we’ll be knee deep in the actual exams. i have several reviews that are over one hundred questions. and the most they’re worth is a few points extra on the exam. so what’s the point? it feels like i’m earning a diploma for someone else. and that’s probably not good.

there is a light at the end of the tunnel. in 4 days, less than that even, we leave. and then we don’t come back. i, for one, will not miss it. i’ll see you all tomorrow.

what’s this?

the consequences of my actions, now?

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would you rather be alone?

it’s a screen it’s a life it’s you it’s me it’s everything
a summer countdown post. day 5

so. how’s everybody doing? having fun? i’m currently waiting for this webpage from 1997 to load so i can do my biology lab. you would think that a gif from 1997 would take milliseconds to load but noooooo we can’t have good things. this blog, the one you are currently reading right now, has a first meaningful print of 2.2 secs. that’s the first bit of content you care about if you’ve never visited this site before. in comparison: i’ve been waiting for a couple minutes. for one image.

anyways i’m talking about technology. surprise?

it’s incredible what we’ve done. take computer components! we have taken rocks, smashed them, infused them with electricity, inscribed runes onto them, and fooled them into thinking. we went from massive mainframes to the chromebooks you are likely reading this on right now. a raspberry pi, a 35 dollar little credit card sized computer, is several million times more powerful than what sent man to the moon.

how about the internet, huh? the massive, revolutionary little technology that made everything before it completely obsolete. the telegraph is dead. the phone lines are dying. so is radio. hell, even the internet is dying.

let me explain. here’s a photo of the first ever website, still accessible at info.cern.ch:

this was web 1.0. this was tim berners-lee’s original dream; an interconnected service giving access to information across the world. pages not built for style, but for raw access of information.

but then we evolved. we wanted more, we wanted better. so on we march to web 2.0: where everything is interconnected. again. now understandably this seems like web 1.0 yet. but the major difference was in web design. 1.0 was all about static pages, guestbooks, the browser wars. 2.0 brought social media to what it is now. the personal web page became outdated, and facebook pages became the new. there was an emphasis on user-generated content, ease of use, interoperability.

but now here we are again. it’s always such a pleasure. web 3.0 is, what looks to be the next evolution of the internet. and it’s such a disappointment. you heard of nfts?

nft stands for no f!cking thanks

these are monkey jpegs. that are selling for more then a new car. you must understand my displeasure here. this idea that everything must be decentralized, written permanently on the blockchain. so here’s what i propose.

if we can’t go back to web 1.0, then let’s at least stay in web 2.0. don’t buy nfts from crypto bros.

hey, we have the ability to change things. we’re the next generation and all that. so let’s veer far, far away from all that threatens this valuable resource. thank you.

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digital silence

i won’t ask a question, i’ll state the truth

this is the way that it is

this is the way that it always will be

so. it’s almost summer break. i may look inactive, but i’m currently writing a countdown for the last week of school. that’s write baby (pun)

but you goblins need content now. so here’s your content.

it’s weird to think that school’s almost over. how many of you remember the first day? week? month? how many of you remember that test you aced? how about the one you failed? how many of you can say they know what happened this year?

in this day and age, how many of us have slowed down? it’s almost impossible with assignment after test after assignment. how many of us have taken time to engage in our passions? we don’t have money. don’t have cars, don’t have time.

until we do.

but when will that be? only a few of us have jobs. only a few of us have permits. and time’s coming like a freight truck.

but how about time? time moves on and on and on forever taking us from a certain past to the uncertain future.

the amount of possibilities every day should stagger the mind. the sheer number of things i could do at any moment is impossible. and i’m sitting here refreshing my inbox. we relive the same few days over and over. when did we forget our dreams? we act as if we get through today our dreams will come back tomorrow.

and no, i don’t have all the answers. i don’t know how to start seeing what could be. but i do know that watering down life’s experience, watering down every little idea and thought to fit the mold isn’t it.

let me pull you aside for a moment. take wrong turns. talk to strangers. open unmarked doors. you are curious, you are smart, you are bored. all you can see right now is a choice between slacking off and working hard. there are so many tiny interesting choices that we could all make and we can’t because we just want to get to tomorrow.

something tells me that you’re never gonna stop
until you get what you want

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you should PROTECT yourself

i have to write another one? really? christ.

i hold on to something strong ’cause i’m about to fall

leaning tower of pisa’s got nothing on me you know

hey remember the EARN IT act? how much of a problem that was? well it’s happening again. with the brand new PROTECT act (senate bill 686) the government isn’t just coming for tiktok, they’re coming for you.

Continue readingyou should PROTECT yourself

heartaches by the number

trouble by the score

everyday you loved me less

each day i loved you more

so spring break’s over. and i don’t know how to feel. like, the break was nice and all. but i have a problem. i… don’t feel like i did it right.

“oh lucas how can you vacation wrong” i don’t feel fulfilled. i feel like i wasted the whole thing, wasting what little time i had. i didn’t go anywhere, didn’t really do anything. and all i can think about is how the next major break is summer break.

we’ve 47 days of school left. i pray for the strength to get through this.

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we don’t get fooled again

no, no!

meet the new boss

same as the old boss

so i got my first detention. wooooo. for being late to school. excuse me? they are aware that i don’t have a car yes? that i am not capable of getting myself to school yet, and i won’t be until maybe junior year? my second time being late too. what happened to 3 strikes and you’re out? straight to zero tolerance apparently. not as if there’s any larger issues in the world than me being late.

you know the real kicker? if i literally just didn’t show up there would be no consequence. wouldn’t get detention. i’d pound out my work in an hour and play minecraft the rest of the day. because i woke up at 7:25 and still made the effort to get there at 7:45, only shaving off 15 minutes of class, i got 15 minutes after school. the next time this happens, it’s a mental health day for me. why bother showing up if i’m late? i’d get punished and still have to go through an entire school day.

so here’s my little form of protest. in the last month of school, may 8 to june 8, i’m using every hall pass i have. i’m taking my 15 minutes back. at this current moment, i have 38 passes. 5 in almost every class, 4 in two others. say i go to the bathroom for 3 minutes. that’s 114 minutes i get off. 7.6 times the amount i spent in the media center. i’m out here fighting god.

and to the office ladies: hi. i figure you might be reading this. and yes this is entirely your fault. you didn’t need to be rude when you were giving me an unnecessary detention. is this what you signed up for? is this what you were hoping you’d do once you got the job? are you happy now?

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hitchhiker’s guide

…and thanks for all the fish!

don’t panic.

i’m writing a little guide to the delightful high school we’re all legally required to cope with. it’s a blog post that will take the next 3 1/2 years to finish. it’ll include notes on the building, the teachers, and more. a real shame then, that we’ll all be off to college or work somewhere before we can use it. ah well, history for history’s sake is a noble cause. my hitchhiker’s guide, coming the summer of 2026.